Saturday, September 4, 2010

I'm okay

Hello everyone. It's Saturday and I decided to give myself the day off. I thought I'd check in on this blog and the associated email account. I was surprised and touched by all of your comments and emails. I know I've said that before and it might seem trite but it's true; I feel deeply grateful for your interest in me and this blog.

I'm okay for now. Nothing focuses the mind like a deadline. I've been and will continue to be frantically working on this damn book for a few more weeks. It's about all I think of these days which, in its way, is a blessed distraction from my own internal morbidity. It's also why I haven't posted much lately. Up or down, more writing is not really something I want to do after a long day's work.

Many of you have expressed genuine anxiety over my state. Thank you. I really am okay. And, upon entering my three favorite months - September, October, November - I should be so for a while now.

I know I don't post with any sort of regularity. I'm sorry about that but I find that navel gazing isn't always the best option for me. But, in creating this blog and allowing you to become invested in it, I do have a certain obligation to you. So, let's make a date. On 8 October 2010, when the trees are at their autumnal finest in my region, let's meet outside at 7:30 am. On that day and at that time, I will be outside, enjoying nature and feeling alive. I hope you will join me. (Nevermind time zones, etc. This is about the act, not temporal concurrence.)

42 comments:

etoileblog said...

i'm so relieved and thankful to read you're okay. I'll be joining you on 8 october.. take care...

Just Another Person said...

okay... October 8th it is...

Anonymous said...

I am drowning in the sea of deadlines myself, and this post made me a genuinely happy smile. So glad to hear you're okay, as am I. For now, as are you.

misssrobin said...

Blog-hopped my way over here today. Now I have to go back and see what you wrote that freaked everybody out.

Glad you are okay. Good luck with the book.

And I'm sorry but I won't be able to make it on October 8. That's just too dang early in the morning for me.

Love autumn though!

ana maria saad said...

hello there from Brazil!

reading your blog has reminded me of some bad times I had. Most of my life to be specific, as I suffer from depression since I was 8 years and now I am 29.
I tried suicide twice at the age of 18 and planned it zillion of times. Nowadays I am well, I have an audiovisual project on the internet where I did a section about invisible illnesses and all treatments I´ve tried, as regular medicine didn´t help me. I also did a short film about a group od depresison sufferers and it´s also available for free there.
maybe it will help you somehow or not...
www.pensamentosfilmados.com.br
hugs from Brazil!
hope you get better!

Anonymous said...

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Best wishes,
Maria

Unique said...

I'm sorta reading but you know how sometimes you try to read and things are just a haze?

ditsyrabbit said...

October 8th then....it'll be good to know we are sharing the moment with so many.
Soooo glad you got out of the abyss...
with love

Anonymous said...

Thank you for your blog and glad to hear you're doing better. Thought you might enjoy this. It's a mini-series about how to enjoy your depression to the fullest.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=8xOREGVnygE

Arti said...

We see, smell, taste, touch and hear. Any act, as it is happening, could qualitatively be a beautiful experience if there is more attention paid to how and why it is done. To understand better the importance of intent in a joyous life, do read the blog post at http://oneworldacademy.wordpress.com/2010/09/24/the-importance-of-intent-in-a-joyous-life/

Hope Despite Depression said...

I'd love to follow your blog but for some reason can't find where I can do that.

Like you, fall is my favorite time of year....

I too am on my own pursuit of happiness and when I read the title of your blog I was instantly drawn to it... Please let me know how I can become a follower! :)

Take care!!!!

Hope Despite Depression said...

BTW - I'd like to share my blog with you - as I have been living with Depression, anxiety, panic attacks, etc. etc. etc. my entire life - but through that time I have learned a lot about myself and how to cope and deal with situations. I hope that you'll stop by and find some inspiration while you're there ... :)

((HUGS))

http://hopedespitedepression.blogspot.com/

Anonymous said...

I didn't make it to the date on 10/8.
Once again, I'm on a downward spiral, and now feeling irrationally jealous at all those who seem to be doing better. Go figure.

Depression Sucks said...

I just started reading your blog - and I too am so glad that you are okay!!! I've just started blogging about my battles with depression, alcoholism and ocd. I'm having "a day" today too. These lows are horrid. You can check me out at: http://battlingdepressionalcoholocd.blogspot.com/
I'd love to be added to your blog roll...and KEEP FIGHTING THE GOOD FIGHT! This Fall weather is such good medicine for me too. :)

Valerie said...

I have had MDD for several decades. Unfotunately, it defines me. The psychic pain from this disease worse than any physical pain. I, too, think about suicide daily. Life does not seem to get better but worse and more difficult. I believe that if a person has a biochemical imbalance versus situational depression that they must learn how to live with it. It doesn't go away. Tried to "fight" MDD and have seen little happiness in my life. I think I would have been happier if I had learned to live with it eariler in my life. One person's opinion . . .

Anonymous said...

Therapy, meds, and church, being around positive people who are doing good things in life might work. We are trying that now. Takes time though I think.

Sikarwar.Rajiv said...

What a thought i salute You:-
So always happy with out mental stress

Anonymous said...

I just came across your blog and just want to say thank you for what you are doing. I go through times off and on where I feel so down it is hard to bear, and reading your experiences gives me hope that I can get through this.

Tom Tsakounis said...

Glad to hear you are feeling OK and are approaching your "better" months.

A distraction that keeps you frantically working is definitely a blessed distraction! Blessings to you for staying focused and motivated.

Best wishes,
Tom

Jimi said...

Great to hear you're working on a book. When I wrote my book on my depression experience I found it to be quite helpful in providing a perspective (for myself, at least) on the whole ordeal. Sometimes stepping back and looking at it dispassionately for a moment can make a big difference.
Jimi Durso
www.IConquerDepression.com

Monica said...

stumbled across your blog and you captured my heart. I have a brother that deals with depression and sometimes it's good to just hear that today you are ok. That to me is a positive. Love the idea about meeting outside, too bad I saw this post too late. A book...wow!
Monica
www.finallylovinglife.com

Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

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Anonymous said...

You'd like this

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=x6QFyu67LnE

Anonymous said...

So are you still okay?
If so, good for you, and I'm envious.
If not, well then, hugs.

La Tendedera said...

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Superman said...

Hello, like your blog and am following.

I am Superman and I'm from Brazil

Glad you're well, I believe we must always fight this depression, I struggle every day to not relapse, but sometimes it is unavoidable, but even so, I will follow my life, for now I do not want to give it up.

The struggle continues, I think for everyone on the blog too!

Cheers!

Patrick Mingey said...

I'm really impressed with your honesty and many times i have wanted to give up as well but having some kind of purpose always helps me. If I help someone else then I get out of my own head but lately my mission has become creating a new social networking website for depression called www.shareyourblues.com and i am hoping you and your followers could support me as well. My motto is "Build it and they will come" and like the Blues Brothers " I'm on a mission from God" but don't worry I'm not religious or affiliated with any religion. Your help and support would be greatly appreciated.

Sincerely,

Patrick Mingey
ShareYourBlues.com

itscomplicated said...

Just found your blog through google. I was diagnosed with depression in Nov 2010 and have just started blogging about it. I find it really helpful reading about other people's experiances, so thank you. Keep strong - looking forward to reading more about you in the future :)

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Sonia said...

I've seen you haven't blogged in a while. Do you think blogging has helped your depression? I posted a poll on my blogg about this. Just want to know if people think it helps. Would love to hear your input and have you vote: http://sonia-lookingforhappiness.blogspot.com/

Hope your O.K.

Anonymous said...

Is this guy still alive or what?

Anonymous said...

Hmm, you haven't posted in awhile. Maybe you're dedicating all your time to your book?

I wish you well and hope things are progressing.

allthingsdepression.com

Manal said...

Great blog..hope things are ok its been a while.

Anonymous said...

I hope you're doing okay. I hope you're enjoying your life as much as you can and treating yourself & your loved ones well. If you want, let us know how you're doing on your book and how YOU are doing. I'm sure your blog has helped many people cope with their depression as they feel the same way you do even though everyone's situation may be different. Reading your blog made me feel better. =) I hope 2011 is treating you well. Take care.

Tommy "Fuzzkins" Tran said...

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Anonymous said...

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Matt said...

Your words are inspiring and have spurred me to add my pathway to recovery in the form of a blog.

Www.ahopefilledlife.blogspot.com

Thank you for the help and inspiration.

Matt

Iain Crabb said...

Personally I'm a fan of other natural "drugs" to treat depression and anxiety. I wrote about them on the claritypath blog here

Anonymous said...

I am new to this blog and do not know the complete road you have taken so far. I too suffer from bouts of depression and have formulated ways to combat it on my own without the assistance of meds. (I don't like the way they make me feel) I had to go ahead and take the day off to clear my head of stress. I cut my lawn today and already feel better by keeping busy. Later I will be exercising to combat the depression even more. How do you cope??

Anonymous said...

have a look www.doyouhavedepression.blogspot.com

it may help.....in the future